Randomness in my head

I’ve had a little coffee today, which always makes me a little edgy.  I am a LOUD and HYPER person without coffee.  I get it from my LOUD and HYPER dad.  Hyper might not be the right word because I mostly just like to sit on the couch, but I am rarely still.  I can’t talk on the phone without pacing constantly.  You can imagine how I must annoy people, but I truly can’t help it.

I don’t usually need coffee for energy, I need it for motivation.  I am LAZY.  Very very lazy.  And yet, Things, they still need to get done.  If I’m the one doing them, caffeine is the push I need.  And it totally works.  BUT, side effect:  My brain gets all filled and jumbly.

SO!  You get the joy of taking a peek inside my crazy.  Which really isn’t so much crazy today, just very very jumbly.  With Bullets!

• My $80 wireless mouse broke after only a few months.  I’ve switched to a $15 wireless mouse and it works great.  FTR, I did not know it was $80 when I bought it since sometimes I don’t look at how much things cost.  I just assume they cost around X amount.  I don’t know why I do that.
• I have a lot of cleaning and other such domestic stuff to do today.  I feel like I must say that all the time.  I seem to be having a hard time getting going today.  The thing is, Smushy is in school which is the very PERFECT time to get things accomplished since it is impossible when she’s here to get anything done. But I feel like it would be pointless to clean since she will come home and destroy everything.  Mr. Silly got a taste of it this weekend when he had to vacuum our area rug twice in an hour.  That was yesterday.  And I need to vacuum again already.  So I’m trying to figure out what’s the point of cleaning AT ALL.  Also, is there a magic age when I can expect her to keep something decent for 10 minutes?
• I need to figure out a recycling system.  I have trash cans on the deck for recycling that are very convenient, but apparently, I can’t be bothered to open the door and use them.  For now I just leave it all on the table right near the door to the deck and make Mr. Silly do it.  I have a valid reason for this.  If it’s raining, I don’t want to get wet.  Also, if I open the door AT ALL, Smushy wants to go outside.  So the current plan is to AVOID.  Not a great plan for the keeping of the clean house.
• I belong to a mommy message board.  We have been together since we were pregnant with our 2007 babies.  These women rock, seriously.  A lot have gone on to have children since then.  So there have been a few posts lately about how hard it is with 2, especially in the beginning.  And I am FREAKING OUT.  Everyone keeps saying how they had help in the beginning and it was their saving grace and I DON’T HAVE HELP.  Mr. Silly will  go back to work the Monday after he’s born (he should be here on a Wednesday) and then I have no one.  Also, he’s due to deploy after we move and then it will be me for 6 months or however long he’s gone.  FREAKING OUT!!!!  Things that are currently freaking me out are:

1. I have to take care of a crazy toddler and a newborn while recovering from a C-Section by myself!!  Smushy is fast and destructive and toddler-y.  Newborns like food and stuff.  I am going to be walking like an old lady for a while at least and unable to move fast.  I don’t know how to do this.
2. I remember the dark moments the very few times I was alone with Smushy in the beginning.  I know how hard it is with one.  I know what sleep deprivation can do.  What if I don’t handle 2 very well on my own?  What if I snap or something?  This probably scares me more than anything.
3. Smushy was an AWESOME sleeper.  No joke.  I’m confident enough in her sleeping to say it.  She was seriously the easiest baby ever.  So of course I won’t get that lucky twice.  And what if he sucks at sleeping.  I can’t nap when he naps the way I could when Smushy was little.  How am I going to cope?
4. I am completely sad for Smushy since I know she’s going to get the short end of the stick for a while.  Not to mention I just know I will lose my patience with her.  I’m trying to implement some don’t lose your patience techniques now, so maybe some of them will stick.  I’m trying to be very matter of fact about discipline.  And I’m working on her putting herself into time out in case I’m nursing when she get into trouble.

• My iPhone ate my contact list.  I synced it last night and it changed everything to my computer address book which had all of 2 numbers on it since I never use that one.  So now, I have to try to remember everyone’s numbers (impossible) and use the recent call list to fix what I can.  I am annoyed.

The End.